Mirror, Mirror

For the past week and some change, quarantine has really tried different parts of me that I didn’t know I had. Before we start, this is a reminder, whatever I choose to share with you guys is not for sympathy, it is not for someone to feel sorry for me, but it’s to get a message out to someone somewhere that needs to receive it. Now that’s out the way, let’s dive in shall we?

This is week, what feels to be 294 of quarantine and I knew it would happen at some point, but I think I’ve hit my wall.

There has been a lot of joking and talking about COVID-19 and everything (I have participated) but nothing is funny to me anymore. I genuinely am sick of the mirror called corona. Did y’all see the word I used?

M I R R O R

This time of isolation and self quarantine has literally put us in front of a mirror and violently forced us to observed what was staring back at us. This could be dangerous or helpful, depending on what voice you allow to talk to you about what you see. What you hear is a direct correlation to what you hear. With this said, if you allow the unhealed, bitter voice talk to you, you’ll hear things that will destroy your character and your beauty. That voice is the voice you want to silence, hearing those things that make you feel ugly, unloved, desperate, etc; needs to be KILLED. Holy Spirit spoke these words to me and I want to proclaim them over every person who reads this:

You are not what you see

You are not what you hear

You are not what you feel

Three life saving concepts that we need to write and engrave on our hearts. My Apostle, Apostle Avery Cotton, equipped me along with his church with being able to keep an “it is written” on our lips. This basically means to talk back to the voice and affirm your own self! There has been times where I wake up and I literally have to tell the voice that tells me, “it’s gonna be a rough day again” to shut up and it’s going to be the best day of my life. You are not crazy for talking back, you are COURAGEOUS! Don’t mix the two.

I do believe that everyone should come out of this with a different identity. Oh wow, I just heard this as I’m writing:

“It’s time for a name change!”

Whew... we will unpack in the next blog!